“In the journal I do not just express myself more openly than I could to any person; I create myself.”Susan Sontag
I am a big fan of journalling, although it is fairly new to me in this season of life. When I was younger; between the ages of 10-14 I journalled daily. I have to admit though, this would have been more of a ‘dear diary’ entry and lots of rambling about my friends and my love interests at the time – maybe even the teachers I hated or what my parents were doing to annoy me! I would doodle in my diaries, glue in notes or photographs and only now I can look back and see how it was a creative outlet for me too. Writing in my diary back then was really a little bit of drawing, scrapbooking and creative writing all rolled into one.
As the years pass and life’s responsibilities fill up the spaces in your head – you drift further and further away from those things that used to spark a light in you – and on a personal level – from who you really are – in your soul. Not as a girlfiend, mother, colleague, wife etc. That person you were when you were young and carefree and had time to process your emotions and create!
It is in recent years that I have found myself desperately trying to get back to my source. I have thought about the things that I used to enjoy when I was younger. I have tried to incorporate more dance and art into my adult life as well as journalling.
I take my inspiration for journalling from many different sources. I enjoy following the phases of the moon and I use tarot and oracle cards to reflect on. I also enjoy listening to Dr. Wayne Dyer and often find myself journalling from quotations of his that get me thinking.
In this article I hope to offer you some reflective questions relating to the Full Moon in Leo this February.
I hope that you can use them to delve deeper into your emotions, getting closer to your source and to find a way back to those things that spark a light in you.
FULL MOON IN LEO
It is an important time to guard against being self-centred, over opinionated or pushy.
Questions for self reflection
- Am I balancing the masculine and feminine energies in my life?
- In what ways have I been self-centred? Towards others? My friends? My family? Work colleagues?
- In what ways and to whom have I been over-opinionated recently? Where is this coming from? Is it ego? Why am I being judgemental – why am I triggered by other peoples actions? Do I need to address something within myself?
- How do I push myself or my ways of thinking on to others? Am I able to allow others the freedom to be themselves?
- What steps will I take in moving forward? Towards a more open, accepting and loving me?
Take time to relax, recharge and replenish your inner strength.
- What makes me feel relaxed? Content and settled, in the moment and mindful?
- What make me feel recharged? Energised and inspired?
- What makes me feel replenished? Full of joy? Happy and grateful?
- What does my inner strength look like?
I found these questions to be so rewarding. Just for fun I have listed some of the things that spark the light in me.
Lying down, peace and quiet, comfy clothes like pyjamas and dressing gowns. A long hot bath is an amazing healer for me. Heat and warmth make me feel relaxed as does a cup of tea and a magazine on the couch with a cosy blanket. I enjoy having candles lit or the log burner on. My electric blanket.
Exercise makes me feel recharged! Also sitting in the conservatory. Daylight, sunshine and vast open spaces make me feel recharged, as does looking at nature, birds and greenery. Talking to certain friends, helping someone, a good laugh, clean styled hair, a tidy home with everything in its place.
Divination, self exploration and journalling, listening to audiobooks and podcasts that interest me. Anything that helps me get closer to knowing myself, studying things to do with nature, looking after the planet, growing plants, keeping them alive and helping the planet and nature thrive replenishes me. Sunshine, hugs, looking at the moon and stars or a beautiful sky, seeing birds and rabbits and deer – to realise that I am not alone on this earth, that I am not superior but a part of it.
Like a wall? Protecting my inner world from all the outside influences. Influences such as other peoples drama, negativity and stress? Trying to release expectations and disappointments from others? Blocking myself from others ego and calling myself out when my own ego kicks in? Not being judgemental or triggered by other peoples behaviour. Trying not to feel the pain and hurt of my family members too deeply and setting boundaries for myself with those who are needy.
I hope you have enjoyed reading this. I would love to hear more about your journalling process, or if you are new to journalling or if you used the reflective questions.
Love from Lisa